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to you, my dear reader, this is my blog. these are my thoughts, feelings and opinions on whatever is going on with my life. now, if you hate me, leave. if you hate whatever is in it, dont read it. it's as easy as one, two, three. now, i am warning you that there will be lots of bad words in this blog of mine. dont sue me. im a kid who has a crappy yet wonderful life. get me? now, decide. to read or not to read.

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i love HIM. i hate HIM. i miss HIM. i want HIM. this sucks.

the girl

The girl who is so lost without you.
her name is jinxx by the way. :D

her wants

..YOU
..YOU
..YOU
..& YOU
..& a new phone
..& a shopping spree too

her lovees

anne:)
aui:)
coleen:)
elioba:)
erika:)
fides:)
gabe:)
ina:)
lee:)
liz {xanga}:)
mariel:)
marnie:)
mau:)
mina:)
phia :)
rica :)
shariz :)

her special days

> .im sooo back.
> ..im seeing grey.
> ..st frideswida.
> ..im back. :D
> .so close to the end.
> .uhm.
> .family day.
> .update.
> .jeico.
> .employee's day.

her past

> July 2006
> August 2006
> September 2006
> October 2006
> November 2006
> December 2006
> January 2007
> February 2007
> March 2007
> May 2007
> June 2007
> August 2007

her visitors




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.my chucks.
Monday, July 31, 2006

waaa! woo.!


haha.!XD


aun.! my chucks.! waaa! we went to school in almost civillian clothes today because of brain gym. some seminar thing to enhance your brain. haha! anywa,i wore my pink chucks today. hehe.


aun. when lunch time came, i was with nicole and the others and aui said that if we write on our chucks, they cant be erased. so i tried writing i love you on nicole's chucks. at first, she didnt notic but then the others told her so i got to only write I. haha! and then nicole wrote on mine! haha! on both shoes, mind you! haha.! she wrote a heart on the right and a star,which doesnt really look like a star, on the left.


haha.! so now my pink chucks have written stuffs on them. haha.! oh well! hope mom doesnt mind. i 'll ust have to cry to her and say im really sorry. which i am. hehe. kidding.! i wont cry naman if i dotn need to. XD


haha!


lesson today. dont wear your chucks if nicole or aui's around. XD


toodles!:)

-she lovees him @ 7:10 PM :)

.Jesus Christ.
Sunday, July 30, 2006

okay. i posted about Jesus kanina and him having relatives. so this post is going to be a serious one. and very confusing because i seem to be debating against myself. i crazy.


so now i am starting to confuse my self all over again. this happened na eh. this confusing-my-self thing. it happened in vietnam na.


why? because of a book. the jesus papers.


if i read it correctly, it is about Jesus not really being the Son of God. the book made it seem that this Jesus person was not really the Messiah. he was just this person who knew how to go to the other life and come back to the real life.


and that he didnt really resurrect. prang ganun. it was as if he was alive all along.



and after reading my sister's blog and angels and demons, i just felt that what if there really isnt any God or Jesus. what if the oldest people ever in the history of old people just made God up so that for all the things that they couldnt explain, they could blame God for it. they could just be like, "only God knows" or something like that. confusing things.



oh well. maybe its just like a test of faith.



and maybe, im failing that test cause im doubting God.

-she lovees him @ 7:50 PM :)

.avalon high.

eeeh! i am reading a book called avalon high. it looks nice. it seems nice. im only half way through and may parts na kinikilig ako. hihi. naks! wooo! its like about this people in annapolis who seems to be people from the past. and its as if they already met like in a past life or something. haha. dunno the real story pa. haha. borrowed it from erika eh. eeeh! thanks jerusalem. :)


what if there was a king arthur really? like until today. or his relatives or something.


just like Christ. they say he has relatives a kids. so what if?


that would be coooool right. haha. oh well. i am blabbering again and again. :)

-she lovees him @ 7:47 PM :)

.hate her...more.
Saturday, July 29, 2006

gosh!


i hate this girl! as in! crap talaga sya! syet!



grabe! kainis! woo!



basta! prang super bitter nya sa ex nya! she's like calling him names and all! parang anu!


but when they were together, all she could think about was her boyfriend! grabe!



woo!


kainis talga!



i think she only said yes to her ex just to cover up her feelings for her crush! pauso pa sya! pretends pa na she doesnt like her crush! pauso!


pahiya lng sya kasi ung crush nya may mhal na iba! haha! wooo!
grabe ah! prang anu! pauso!



>.<

-she lovees him @ 3:23 PM :)

.marnieness,mommy dosia, mahal ko and ate.
Friday, July 28, 2006

wooo!

marnieness,mommy, mahal ko and ate.


thank you! sa inyong apat! kasi napasaya nyo talaga ako! eeh! basta napasaya nyo talaga ko!


thank you! marnie! wooo! dun sa group! thanks talaga! natatawa talaga ako sau! eeeh! katuwa! aun. tapos nung after ko umiyak ,sabi mo "jinky! mukha kang sadako!" haha! grabe! natawa ako dun ah! thank you sa pagpapatawa! :) haha! aun! sorry di kita na-comfort kanina. aun. sorryness!:)

marnie. i actually admire you for being who you are. basta masaya kasi eh! hehe.:)


aun. tapos kay mommy! yeah! mommy! i love you mommy dosia! thank you! for always being there. and no, you're not flat-chested so don't worry about it! haha! tsaka dont worry about what others say. if you feel good, then you look good. i actually admire you for being ever so confident. and i know you love me! :)

haha! sorry din kanina. couldnt comfort you cause i was having my own crybaby session. :)


MAHAL KO! yeah! thank you. for always being there kahit na ibang section ka last year. you were there when i needed you. thank you for being my shoulder to cry on.:) thank you for being so nice and loving and caring. a great friend i would never want to lose. :)

sorry rin. kasi i know you cried. di kita nacomfort kahit na you were so near cause as i have said, i was having my own crybaby session. :) sorry.

i love you because you are you. you are not afraid of being you and being confident and that is why i look up to you. you are never too shy about anything.:)


ate! eeh! yeah. thank you! for being my ate. and for making kwento about you-know-who. thank you.alam mo na naman kung bakit diba. :)



to you 4, i love you! hehe!:)


marnie, im sure naninibago ka sa pagrinig na i love you pero ganun eh. haha! basta. sa lahat ng times na malungkot ako, kaw nagpapasaya kahit di mo alam.:) mahal ko, mommy and ate. aun. siguro sanay na kau na marinig na sinasabi ko na mahal ko kau.


I LOVE YOU ALL.:)

-she lovees him @ 10:02 PM :)

.drama queen.

wooo!

it was our recollection a while ago. so yeah.

okay lng naman,at first.

we had to group ourselves, and we named our group the prettyness group. haha!

it was fun naman.


until i started crying!




crap!!!! i cried like hell! i cried like a little girl who lost her mommy! my gulay!embarrasing kaya!some people were like, "look oh! jinky's crying."




crap.



kasi naman eh!


it all started when we were asked to choose 4 very important people in our lives. and i chose well. my dad, my mom, my sister and my bhes.


crap! if i knew we had to share, i wouldnt have written those stuffs. aarrrgh!


so yeah, i shared with my group. saya pa naman nung group. my groupmates were hana, darlene, erika, madel, SIL and marnie. tpos aun. hana was first, then darlene. then erika. erika was the first to cry pero her cry wasnt really that bad. she cried pero like a normal grown up would. aun. tpos it was marnie's turn na. aun. marnie was acting pa na parang sad sya. pero natatawa naman kami! katuwa talaga un. aun. after nya was SIL. ahh. aun. okay naman. tpos 'twas my turn na. syet! i havent started pero i was crying na! grbe! kahiya tlga cause i was the only one crying in the group and possibly the only one crying [in the class] at that time! syet! kahiya un noh! so yeah. i tried, in between sobs, to share. and fortunately, natapos ako. madel's turn. aun. then, as a group, we had to tally down the people we wrote. and it was okay naman. [and becuase of the crying,we changed our name to dramaticness. of course, dont forget the ness!] but when marnie and darlene explained na, i started crying again! like crap! syet tlga! kasi people saw me crying tapos si liz ata un, she was like, "look oh! si jinky!"


i was like. crap. aun. grabe! even ms. portia and sr delia and sr mary frances[our facilitator] noticed!


wooo! that was so crappy. i just dont like to be seen so vulnerable like that eh. woo! aun. i tried so hard to stop crying, as in i started laughing pero ayaw pa rin! so aun. after sharing, we had to do this prayer thingy and sr mary frances said some things na i couldnt understand na cause i was still freakin' crying! as in i didnt get to do the prayer thingy properly kasi i was sobbing like hell. i had to move back pa nga pero i dont disturb SIL, who was beside me, not crying, mind you. ms portia was just theer. so very nicey of her. :)


grabe! i sobbed like crap talaga! as in! kahiya talaga un! i was like a little baby! woo!


aun. tapos the prayer thingy finished na, after like 15 minutes ata, and yet, i was still crying! tapos sr. mary frances was like, if you want to hug those who are crying you may do so blah blah. loving people went to me. pero i couldnt see them. haha. i was tucked in talaga. even my pants,in the knee part, were wet. kainis. puro tears!


kahiya talaga!



aun! lunch was after that so i had to stop crying na. aun. tapos people hugged me. baet baet. tapos aun. told P.P. na susunod na lang ako cause i wanted to stay sa AVR first. and cry and fix myself. aun. almost everyone left na. me, the two sisters and aui were left. kulit kasi ni aui. told her to leave na, ayaw! so aun. i left the AVR na. with a freakin red clogged nose and eyes that look like hell. woo!


when i got down, grabe! news spreads like air pala! haha! ok,i dont know the saying. blah blah. anyhoo. as i was saying, when i got down na, by the TLE room, people were like, "you cried? why?" or, "why are you crying?". grabe.



aun. i went to the pergola kasi P.P. were there. tapos aun. the lioban P.P. were playing pepsi cola. i just watched them kasi i didnt want to eat naman. aun. natawa ako sa paglaro ng pepsi cola. haha. sina anne at ate kasi eh. tapos si ina. prang anu! haha! katuwa! hehe.

aun. kaya aun.


i thought the crying would stop there. pero hindi pa rin. grabe!


we had this activity where in we had to write something positive about our classmates. aun. nicey nice people of the universe.

after that, another activity came up and we had to give some person/ people a candle to say we're sorry. i gave sab and erika. guys, i am freakin sorry, esp. to jerusalem. SORRY! aun. then, we had to give some one another candle to say "can we be friends?" so i gave alyanna. hehe. almost everyone did.

oh! before i forget, a miracle happened! liz and sab are friends na! see what recos can do! haha! so yeah. friends na ulit sila. happiness!


aun. anyhoo. so yeah. then sr mary frances asked the officers to say a few words to the class. tapos aun. si julia, nakisali na rin dun. tapos aun. and she asked who wanted to say something daw. tapos joana went first. she cried. grabe! MAHAL KO! wag ka na iyak! woo! aun. tapos i went next. i just thanked them. because. becuase they make me feel happier. hehe. they know naman why eh. long message. to all my classmates, thank you ulit. thanks for the love and care. you guys know i love you naman eh. :) woo! aun. when i said my message, i cried na naman. grabe! kahiya tlaga un! wooo!

my gulay! i cried my heart out in this reco. grabe!

anyhoo. i know this is a looong post. pero deal with it. you're in my blog. haha.


may happiness din sa reco. haha! woo! we had a 1-hour lunch break. so we kinda finsihed early, so we went up na for soundtrip lng. and so, people started dancing! eeeh! haha! MAHAL KO AND MOMMY! woo! MARNIENESS!!! haha! eeeh!XD katuwa kau! i love you!!! pinapasaya nyo ako! haha! XD aun. tapos nagbrown out! haha! habang sumasayaw sina MOMMY! haha! woooo! prang anu eh! pero masaya!

haha!


all in all. i am loving my section more and more each day. i love them na. kahit na at first, i thought impossible. hindi pala. kaya ngaun, mahal ko na sila. :)

-she lovees him @ 9:16 PM :)

.birthday boy.

it is meeee brother's birthday!!!!!!!!



eeeeh! 12 years old! my gulay! he is freakin growing fast!

it means im growing fast too! waaa! haha!


anyhoo. he got a phone. as i have said. hihi.



happy birthday dear brother! haha!:)

-she lovees him @ 9:01 PM :)

.new cellphones.
Thursday, July 27, 2006

waaaa!


my brother and my sister have new phones! eeeh.! haha! :)


ang cute! flippy toppyness ung mga phones nila! haha! :) woo.!



aun. since my sister's phone got stolen, mom bought her a new phone! eeeh! samsung.! woo!:) she also bought my brother a phone cause it is his birthday tomorrow!

eeeh! happy birthday brother! haha! :) his phone is a flip top but there isnt any camera. nor infrared. its really for my brother since he doesnt really like phones. he likes his gameboy pa ata eh! haha!:)

so yeah. mom is still waiting for my decision if i am willing to give my phone up for a razr v3x. woo!


tough decision. i want a new phone pero i dont want to erase my stuffs in my old phone.


fcuk! i dont know!!!


what do you guys think? change or stay with the same freakin phone?


arrrgh!

crap!

-she lovees him @ 9:19 PM :)

.new student.

weee!:)



we have a new student!:)




naks!


haha!


her name is Alyana and she's from italy.



haha!



coolness nga eh! she can speak english, spanish and italian and understand filipino and a bit of french.



tapos kanina, i was helping her with math. so funny! haha! kasi factoring topic so i asked her to dived 46 and 7. woo! katuwa! she computed in spanish ata so i was like. what?? there were words kasi na i didnt understand eh. natatawa tuloy kami habang nagma-math! good thing ms mel didnt get mad. haha! :) eeeh.!:)

-she lovees him @ 4:19 PM :)

.the hell with you.
Wednesday, July 26, 2006

this effie person.



stupid effie person who we suspect to steal my sister's phone freakin blamed me!



actually. it's quite obvious she stole it!


the hell with her!


why would i ever be stupid enough to steal MY SISTER'S PHONE?





you are such a fcukin stupid a**hole!




even though me and my sister fight like cats and dogs, I WOULD NEVER EVER FREAKIN STEAL HER DAMN PHONE, IDIOT!



besides, it has no use to me.



it's a stupid piece of junk!




well, to me.



it's so hard to use. and the keypad is like hell. it takes me forever to text someone!>.<



fcuk you!!!!!>.<

-she lovees him @ 7:51 PM :)

.no classes.
Tuesday, July 25, 2006

weee! i have no classes today.! bwahaha!

so now i have a 4 day weekend.! haha.!


im sure tomorrow there's school na cause right now, it's bright and sunny!:)

haha!

anyhow. i am bored. and i still need to do my blog skin so...


toodles!

:)

-she lovees him @ 2:22 PM :)

.confused.
Monday, July 24, 2006

whoa! making my own skin is soooo hard! so right now, im going to use this skin until i make my own. haha! good luck to me!


oh! and there are no classes today! weeee!:)


so im here at home. just using the net.

and now mom wants me to fix my room. sometimes,i just wish she stayed in vietnam. haha!


oh well. life sucks anyway.


:)

-she lovees him @ 2:36 PM :)

.what?!.

yesterday was such a f*cking day.


i mean. fcuk.



my sister lives in manila na since she's in college. and we all know that there's a big chance that you get robbed in manila. and even die if you dont give your money or phone or whatever. so my sister takes GREAT care of her things. like really.


so how the hell could someone steal her money and phone in OUR OWN FREAKIN' HOUSE?!


fcuk. i cant believe someone would actually do that.



and to think that stupid person did it like between 12 to 3 am.




here's the story [i'll keep it short so you'd understand.]




my sister told me na she was going to use the computer after i use it. and that she'll take a nap first. she alarmed her phone at around 11.15. she didnt hear it so she just slept all through out. tpos she woke up at around 4am daw and she couldnt find her phone so she thought that like, it fell or something so she slept again. when she woke up, she tried looking for it. but it really wasnt there. so aun. she started packing her things cause she was going to ust. she checked her wallet and her freakin' money was gone! so there. i woke up and helped her look for it. even her prepaid load was gone. some stupid person even got her prepaid.

fuck.



some stupid inside person freakin stole her things!


whoever you are bitch, give my sister's things back.


no one messes with my sister but me. me you understand!

fcuk you.


>.<

-she lovees him @ 11:21 AM :)

.first post.
Saturday, July 15, 2006

yeah! wooo.! new blog for me! nyaha! i have made so much blogs! never kept them cause i have one in friendster na... but since i want a new one. i made a new one! haha! blah.! so this is my first post. i have to go and look for a nice skin. haha! and i have to make a cbox! haha!


toodles! nyaha!

-she lovees him @ 1:33 PM :)