goshness.
i feel so sad and gloomy today. i dont really know if its because of the culminating activity thingy. or the togetherness feastday thingy. or how these people make me feel. i dont know. i just feel crappy. which is usually how i feel anyway. but today, this crappy feeling isnt normal. arrgh. im not even making sense.
we lost in the culminating thingy. and gosh were we disappointed. we really were. ive never seen a class so disappointed like how we felt awhile ago. oh well. next time, we'll beat your butts out. X) that was an expression, mind you.
the togetherness feastday. i feel bad for marnie. its just that she worked hard for it. made all the freakin letters because we all thought lioba and elizabeth wanted to be together. and then we found out that they didnt want to be together. after everything was worked out and approved, it was for nothing really. shucks. oh well. we'll just have an effing rocking feastday. X)
marnie said that sr regina only approved for "not rock" music so i dont know if prutti will still play or marnie, dosia and donna will be the only ones to play. this sucks. our first gig might be ruined. shucks.
i dont know how to express my feelings without dropping hints. but i feel so bad it sucks, you know. i mean. if you dont want to tell me, then fine. just dont talk about it when im around. its rude and stupid. how would you feel if i started talking about something you didnt know about and cant relate too. you would just be there, sitting, not talking to anyone. as if you dont exist. it makes you feel like a fool, trying so hard to join in the conversation and be part of the group. i mean, you guys are already together most of the time, so why talk about it when im around??..
and you. haay. i dont even know why i miss you. really. but i do. i miss you a lot.
and to you. haay. what's wrong with you? you act like there's nothing wrong. but you know there is. you should know there is. do i have to like slap you just so you'd figure out? dont you notice anything different?
life sucks right now. it always does anyway. haay. when will i ever get used to it.