_my love for you;

.my week.

Wednesday, September 27, 2006

haha. i know the week aint done yet. but i've got to update. haha. X)

things i have done since saturday::::
>i went to the dentist. i had to get the measuring thingy for the braces part. im getting braces. i suck. oh, and they placed rubber bands between my teeth. and they freakin hurt!!!
>i got a haircut. it's shorter and layered now. haha. i shall post some pics in my fotopic. haha. X)
>i went to mass.
>i watched the UAAP Game 1 UST-ADMU and i didnt know which one to support. haha. X)
>i did all the freakin make up stuffs and homeworks i had to do. crap. i suck. >.<
>i never get to eat except on dinner time because there is soup at home. easy to eat. X) gosh. i am HUNGRY!!! >.<
>i got the transit na. i love it. i love yael of spongy cola. i love the songs. X) ♥ ♥

there. yan ata.

uhm. update pa::
>there are no classes for some ssc-w peeps. i love it. pero too bad for st. lioba, wala silang feast day. tsktsk.
>field trip is moved to monday. waaa! oh well.
>its ica's bday on onct 2! happy bday! X)
>the field trip shirt is, as usual, too big for me. gawd. i should be a size 12 na ata eh. 14 is still big even though its what i got. what the??? oh well.
>i have to upload songs na. waa! oh well. sayang lng. every one was so excited pa naman for field trip. tapos biglang, on monday na. haha. X) crap.

gawd. i suck.

-she lovees him @ 7:59 PM :)

.surveyness again.

1. the last movie you watched?
::uhm. john tucker must die. nyahaha! X) cuuteeee ni jesse metcalfe.! gooosh.! <3333 ♥

2. the last tv show you watched?
:: uhm. the myx first thingy. naaakkkss! may myxxxxxx nnnaaaaa.! XD

3. the last song you heard?
:: waltz. haha. X) mukha ni champ eh. haha. X)

4. the last thing you bought?
:: uhm. car sticker. haha. XD

5.the last place you went to?
:: uhm. school?. XD

6. the last food you ate?
:: uhm. fish. and. rice. haha. XD

7. the last thing you heard from your parents?
:: uhm. mom: jinx, sa monday na daw field trip nyo. sabi ni kuya joe.

8. the last thing you said to your parents?
:: sagot ko: alam ko na po. ako kasi nagsabi sa kanya. XD nyahaha.! XD

9. the last thing you said to one of your friends?
:: to aui: [thru text] no to karina: ayan na oh. XD

10. the last book you read?
:: uhm. ewan. hehe. XD but i am starting na on digital fortress. haha. XD

Who was:

1. the last person you called?
:: uhm. ewan. XD

2. the last person who called you?
:: uhm. soy. XD

3. the last person you texted?
:: uhm. aui. XD

4. the last person who texted you?
:: aui rin. XD

5. the last person who said good night last nyt?
:: si aui ata. natext nya nung tulog na ako. haha. XD kaya kanina ko na nabasa. XD

6. the last person who said i love you?
:: uhm. basta. haha. ewan. XD si aui rin ata. haha.

7. the last person you gave a testimonial?
:: uhm. si ate. haha. X) may utang pa ako sa kanya. goshh!XD

8. the last person who sent you a msg in friendster
:: uhm. si len len ata. haha. ewan. X)

9. the last person you hugged?
:: hugged? uhm. ewan. haha. XD

10. the last person you saw on tv?
:: uhm. si champ?.XD

Do You?

1 Do you believe that love is forever?
:: uhm. next question please....

2 Do you get hurt by people easily?
:: uhm. ewan. cguro. haha.XD

3 Do you believe that all people are generally good
at heart?
:: syempre naman. haha. XD kaya lng ung goodness nila, mga 5 minutes lang naglast sa buong buhay nila.XD

4 Can you be anyone you want to be?
:: haha. i hoooppppe! XD

5 Do mean people make you sad?
:: haha! baka ako ung mean. uhm. ewan. minsan. haha X)

6 Does ice cream make you happy?
:: yes yes yes! yuuuum! hungry!!

7.Do you sing in the shower?
:: haha! uhm. yes! haha! X) lalo na pag natatakot ako! haha! X) sa banyo natakot eh! XD

8 When it rains, do you like to splash in the
puddles?
:: uhm. no. eww. XD

9 If you see a cute guy/girl walk down the street,
do you smile and tell him/her that he/she is cute?
:: haha! duuuuddeee. smile lang. super weird naman pag sinabihan ko na 'ang cute mo' kaagad. XD haha! X)

10 Do you notice when people have beautiful eyes?
:: of course. XD

11 Have you ever cried at a movie?
:: yeesss. haha X)

12 Is it cute when old people are holding hands?
:: awww. cuute nga. haha. X) so sweeeetttt. XD

13 Are you a happy person?
:: dapat lagi happy. para masaya. X) nyaha.! X)

14 Do you tend not to worry even when you know
something bad is about to happen?
:: i always worry. haha. X)

15 Is it okay to cut off barbie's hair?
:: i dont care about barbie. XD

16 Have you ever laughed so hard that your
stomach hurt?
:: haha! yesss. haha.! X)

18 Are you slightly lazy?
:: slightly? understatement yan. haha. X)

19 Do you like to drive with the windows open?
:: i dont drive eh. pero cguro i will drive with the windows open. XD

20 Are you in love?
:: next question. ay. wala na pala. XD

ayan. i answered a survey from macin's blogness. i shall make kwento on my next post. X)

-she lovees him @ 7:47 PM :)

.confe.

Sunday, September 24, 2006

haha! right now, i am in a confe with avi, wena and aui. haha!

and then, wena, avi and i are arguing about the ADMU-UST game. haha. and about chris tiu being cute. haha. X)

he is cute, you know. love the eyes. they make me melt. X)

cuuuute. X)

hehe. X)

-she lovees him @ 8:02 PM :)

.one second.

i just learned today how one second can change you life. haha. exaaaggggge. life eh noh. X)

gawwddd!!!! WAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAA!!!

uste lost. USTE LOST. UST GROWLING TIGERS LOST. gawd.

first time i watched a UAAP game like this. like for the whole time. i was excited, scared, nervous. gawd i was even screaming. X) i dont usually watch UAAP like this. noooo. i dont. waaa!

they lost. just because of that single second, they freakin lost. LOST i tell you. LOST! grabe. i thought they were going to win. but there was still one second in the game. and ADMU used that freakin second to win and crush me. haha! exaaagggee. crush me. X) pero gosh.! as in they lost.! waaa!

that second made a difference.

GAWD. ONE FREAKIN SECOND. >.<

oh well. there's still game 2.

im so effie. shucks. good luck UST sa next game. and congrats ADMU. yes, im happy for you guys. because that is yael's old school. and since i love yael, i love you too. X) jc intal, gawd. YOU ARE SUCH A GOOD PLAYER. galiiiiinnngg! X)also escalona and kramer. :)

-she lovees him @ 7:01 PM :)

.friday is THE day.

Sunday, September 17, 2006

friday was the day.

it was the day of the ABS dance, cards out, merit and honors recognition thingy and sleepover at nicole's housie. :)

so i gotta make kwento. :) just so i get to post about something nice. :)

so yeah. like 4.30 in the morning i had to wake up cause i had to be in SSC-W by like 6.15 or something. hehe. :) aun. pero i acutally woke up at 4.45. haha. :) pagod eh. X) then my dad and my mom borught me to school. hehe. X) nicey parents. when i got there, uhm the hs peeps were only mikee, gem, karel and kay/kaye. X) aun

got there. went to the bus. waited for others to get to school. left at like 7.00 na ata. hehe. X) going there, me and nicole were seatmates. FOOD TRIP! yum yum cheetos.! haha! X) aun. hehe. when we got there, gawd it was scary. we watched some other schools practice first. hehe. X) scary! they were so GOOD. especially the BACOLOD peeps. my goshness.! X) amazing.! X) aun. then we practiced a little. then we ate snacks. then we went to our dressing room. changed for tdr. got make up and hair done. ate lunch. hehe. X) shakeys. yum yum chicken. X) then practice. then went to kuniberta hall. gawd it was cold. X) my goshness.! then we went down to dance na. my gosh.! it was scary.! sooper cold. and some important peeps were watching! my gulay.! X)

aun. when we finished, we went back to kuniberta hall, ate dinner. and watched others perform. X) changed clothes. by 7.00 we went to st. cecilla's hall where the program was actually happening. looked for nicole's mom. waited for her cause she wanted to watch. then left for home. haha.! X) alyssa and her mom rode with us. X) nicey people. X) they dropped me and nicole off in atc. hehe. X) gala muna bago uwi. X) hehe. there.

and i got my very first pedicure. X) hehe. X) nice nicole. X) oh. then we watched john tucker must die. X) jesse is such a hot cutie.X) my gaaaawwwddd.. i looooove. X) there. then bought starbucks. called nicole's mom. went home. took a bath. and by 12 we were off to bed. X)

fun fun day. i dont want to explain everything. that would be too long. X) but that day was scary but fun. X)

oh yeah. except for the cards out part. im so disappointed. im so stupid.
toodles. X)

-she lovees him @ 7:49 PM :)

.disappointed.

gaawwdddd...

im so DISAPPOINTED. super.

my grades suck. i suck. shit. sorry for the word. i had to say it. im so sad. my grades are so low. i only got a merit. i suck. seriously. i suck. i really do.

so low grades. i want to cry. :(

im so crappy. :(

**have to post about something else. i suck.

-she lovees him @ 7:40 PM :)

.scared to death.

Thursday, September 14, 2006

gaaawwwddd.....

i am so effing scared!

tomorrow is the ABS dance and im so scared. arrrghh.! positively, all our hardwork, bruises and wounds will be shown tomorrow in ssc-manila. im so scared. :)

pray that we all do well. pray for me most especially. my body aches. i will love you. :) seriously, pray for us alright. :)

-she lovees him @ 8:30 PM :)

.surveyness again.

Q: A friend whose name starts with 'M'
A: mina r. and v. :)

Q: 4th person on your missed calls?
A: some person i dont know XD

Q: What did your last text message say?
A: something from my dad. :)

Q: Do you chew on your straws?
A: yes. hehe. X)

Q: Do you have curly hair?
A: nope, that would not look good on me ata. haha. X)

Q: What is the next concert you're going to:
A: i dunno. X)

Q: Who is the coolest person in your life?
A: ME ME ME! haha. X) conceited. X) i know. :D

Q: What words do you say a lot?
A: my gosh.! katuwa.! eeeeh.! X) my gulay.!X) ewan.X) add ness to words. X)

Q: What is the last thing you ate?
A: dinner. X) nyaha! X) i dunno what it was eh. XD

Q: What was the last thing you said to someone?
A: can you get me water? hehe. X) i know. maldita. X)

Q: Do you watch TV?
A: my gosh.! hindi naman every minute of my life at home. X) sarcastic, pansin mo? naks.!X)

Q: Most random thing you've heard in the past few
months?
A: nothing is ever random. X) [labo dude]

Q: Do you have work/school tomorrow?
A: yeah. kinda. X)

Q: Ever been hunting?
A: nope. X)

Q: Is marriage in your future?
A: i dont know. if i find my special someone, maybe. X) naks.! invited ka if ever! X)

Q: What should you be doing right now?
A: uhm. packing. X)

Q: Funniest thing that happened to you today:
A: funniest? ewan. X)

Q: Do you believe in love at first sight?
A: nope. X) thats not possible. X)

Q: Who's the youngest one in the family?
A: my brohhh.X)

Q: Is drug free the way to be?
A: yes. X)

Q: Are you a heavy sleeper?
A: if im really tired. X)

Q: Do you clean up nice?
A: nope. i hate cleaning. except if its my things. X)

Q: Last time you used a skateboard?
A: never. X) teach me. X)

Q: Have you ever started an uncontrollable fire?
A: nope. lagot ako. X)

Q: Ever run out of gas on the road?
A: uhm. nope. lagot kami. X)

Q: Best movie you've watched in the past two
weeks?
A: the devil wears prada.! X) cuuute.!

Q: Whats your favorite form of travel?
A: uhm. the car. X)

Q: Next place you'll go:
A: mah roomness.X)

Q: Next movie you want to see:
A: john tucker must die. you, me and dupree [sp?]. step up.! channing.!X)

Q: Next person/s you want to sleep with:
A: uhm, dunno. X)

Q: Next time you're going out:
A: tomorrow.! X)

Q: Next time you're going to move:
A: ikaw, kailan sa tingin mo?

Q: Next thing you're going to save money for:
A: uhm. movie. and chucks. and clothes. X) haha! X)

Q: Next time that you will drink alcohol:
A: never. baho eh. X)

Q: Next person you are going to call:
A: ewan. bukas siguro. X)

Q: Next place you'll take your vacation at:
A: home. X)

Q: Next thing you are going to do after filling this
survey:
A: uhm pack or watch. X)

Q: Who would you like to see answer this survey:
A: ewan. X)

i answered this because im a lazy but very tired little conceited girl. X)

-she lovees him @ 8:09 PM :)

.cooooler.

Sunday, September 10, 2006

i feel waaaaay better now. haha. X)

mostly because of yael. since i saw his face again. he looks good in black. hehe. X) looks thinner pero macho. hehe. X) yes, that is possible. oh! by saying yael i mean yael of spongecola. not from anywhere else. haha. X) anyhoo. yeah. heard their bitiw song. cant wait to get the album. haha! X) balik cd player ako. hehe. X) so yeah.

oh. and also because nothing could really piss me off today. hehe. X) so far so good. X)

i was listening to APO kanina. nyaha! X) cute songs. cute cute songs. X)

and congrats to USTE! eeeh.! go uste! hehe. X) amzaing cheerdancing abilities. X) hehe. X) USTE supporter ako. hehe. X) i wonder why. XD

so yes, i just wanted to post about that. X) haha. X)

oh well. oh. and if the person gets to read my previous post, im so dead. oh well. X) hehe. X) at least he know the truth. X) im sorry if i hurt your feelings dude. but. cant keep it anymore. :)

nyak!

toodles.! X)

-she lovees him @ 5:34 PM :)

.bitch is being a jinxx.

Saturday, September 09, 2006

arrrgh!

jinxx is being a bitch. really.

why? because this past 2 days, life has been a bitch. so i returned the 'favor' it was giving me.

yesterday, i got super tired becuase of what we call 'practice' which really wasnt practice. haha! X) cause we are so obedient. practice was the best. haha. X) funny moments with the dancers. especially alyssa and nicole. X) fun fun fun. X) i think when nicole grows up ,she's going to be a gymnast or something. haha. X) oh, this kwento may have mababaw things. mababaw ako eh. X) and not really accurate words. haha. X) anyhoo,things happened like:

nina, alyssa, mina and ashley wanted to play volleyball. so they did. only me and nicole didnt. hehe. so we sat on one side of the court. our convo was like:
me: you should have told me that you were going to wear your chucks. i could have worn mine. X)
nicole: i did! yesterday. haha.X)
me: oh wait. its ok pala na i didnt wear mine.
nicole: [some line i forgot. but its about her writing on my chucks]
me: i think i have a pen right here[i really didnt. X) just bluffing sis.]
nicole: [runs to other side of the court and sits there]

haha. funny. X)

after they played volleyball, nina, ashley, alyssa and nicole started with the tumbling thing. nina wanted to learn ata. me and mina just sat on the floor. haha. X) talking lang. then nicole did a cartwheel.

mina: nicole, ulit!! X)
me: oo nga! circus ito.!

ulit naman si nicole. haha. X) mina and i looked like little kids. X)

aun. after the tumbling things, nina,nicole, ashley and alyssa went to the back side of the gym. kami ni mina, usap lng. haha. X) mga tamad. aun. when i saw nicole, i thought she was going to do a cartwheel pero i thought again na she couldnt cause she'd hit the cabinet of the gym. tapos we didnt mind them na. tpos we heard two "bangs". tapos i looked at sila nicole, i saw nicole on the floor. she was trying to do a headstand pla. grabe. and she hit her knee and elbow. haha. X) she was even laughing. we didnt know if we were going to comfort her or what. haha! everyone was laughing!X) aun. after nun, nicole wanted to do a bridge naman. the one where you dont have to lay/lie down. X)

nicole: jinky, support my back.
me: no, you're just going to fall and hit your head.
nicole: [sees alyssa] alyssa, support my back.
alyssa: why?
nicole: im going to do a bridge.
alyssa: [goes to nicole and supports her back and tummy, somehow
nicole: not like that alyssa, just my back.
alyssa: but you're going to fall.
me: [supports nicole's back] there!
alyssa: okay. [supports nicole's back too.]
nicole: [after she'd done the bridge] ok, let go.
me: are you sure?
nicole: yeah!
me and alyssa: ok. [let go]
nicole: [after 2 seconds] come back. come back!!! i cant come up!

i couldnt help her cause i was laughing so hard! X)

but i still cant change the fact that i got tired. hehe. and i smelled like crap. haha! X) also, yesterday, there was one thing that really ticked me off. really. it sucked really. i cried cause of it.

gawd. dont be so OA. please. and if you dont want anymore, just say it. i dont like playing games with you anymore. im tired already. i go out of my way for you. even stay awake til 12 am just to write you a letter even though i was busy like hell. i always let you hurt me becuase i dont want to lose you. i always try to say the right things because whenever i try to say how i really feel, you get all sad and "martyr-ish" and tell me that you're giving up on me but in the end, you blame it all on me that's why we never work out. you always say that we'll never work out but you still say its my fault. you say that im so insensitive when in fact im always hurt with what you say and i cant realize that. its always my fault even if i've done everything i could. its always my fault even if you're the one who's letting go of me and giving up on the friendship. its always MY FAULT.

well, start thinking.
everytime you say you're letting go of me, dont you think i get hurt?
everytime you say its my fault, dont you think i get hurt?
everytime you say goodbye, dont you think i get hurt?

stop thinking about yourself or about my faults and start thinking about yours. im sacrificing my feelings already just for you. and you cant even realize that. im doing everything i can for the moment and you cant even realize that. and im pretty sure that if you read this, you're going to get mad and stop being my friend.

anyhoo. i wanted to go to the album launch of spongycola since it could really cheer me up. i knew it could. i needed to go. but i didnt. no one was going and i was sure as hell that my parents wont allow me to go nor drive me to Metrowalk. i was just stuck to listening to the live broadcast through the radio. oh well. i had to take what i could. so anyhoo. it did cheer me up. yael is such a funny guy. hehe. i love listening to ~~him~~. errr, them. hehe. X) the armo song. X) cute! X) so yeah. since i loved it soo much, i wanted to record it. but the only thing my dear phone had was a video recorder so i recorded it using that. haha. X) still. dont care. as long as i get to hear his voice and wits every day. so yeah. that cheered me up. X)

that was yesterday. a handful. >.< today sucked big time!

i fought with my mother, cursed my sister and did a tantrum in front of my brother because of my sister. slept thinking that i wouldnt wake up. had no interest whatsoever in doing anything. skipped lunch because i got pissed. got mad at my mother and sister when they tried to wake me up to go to the dentist. but i felt better listening to my recorded yael thing and when i went to mass. X) felt bad because of a big news. felt sad cause of my problem with my bhes. felt angry cause of nothing.

today SUCKED. so much, worse day ever. and since im so babaw, im still regretting not going to the album launch yesterday. sucks.

oh well. life is a bitch. bitch is life.

-she lovees him @ 9:31 PM :)

.hope in love--always.

Its so hard to be in a stage wherein you recognize what love or crush or infatuation or inspiration or admiration actually mean. like ACTUALLY. When you start liking a person [by a "person",i mean not like a friend or family, i mean like "like like"] and you'll always want to like someone. Its just that at most times, they serve as your inspiration . inspiration like in every single day of your freaking life. When you lost that someone, you lose the inspiration, you feel sad. You'd want to find another person to like--to cling on.

Ms. Portia asked the class to write a poem. in tagalog. And it was by partner--Christine was mine. We had to write about either love, jealousy, gratitude, sadness or something i could not remember. anyhoo. Christine chose to write something about Shaman King--her addiction [X)] anyhoo. we ended up writing about love because i made a deal about christine. we write about love but with no shaman king involve. dude,i was screwed. arrrgh! LOVE! Which sucked really cause i haven't been lucky in that department. Apparently, i was given the "honor" to experience being heart broken evey single freaking day of my life. SUCKS.

So yeah. Then i watced the finale of OTH. I felt so moved i cried. i CRIED! such a baby. But not only becuase my boyfriend jumped into the water to save his uncle and some biatch and risk his life. [Haha. i dont like rachel.X)] But also because of what Brooke said. That there will always be hope in love. and that naley showed them that. there will ALWAYS be hope in love.

♥

-she lovees him @ 9:18 PM :)

.kaboom!.

hello there. hehe. X) its been a whil since i last posted. why? becuase the computer has been most of the time taken or im busy. so what i did when i wanted to post but couldnt was i wrote on paper what i wanted to post about. haha. X) i hope that made sense. X) oh well. so yeah. i shall start on my next post. X)

-she lovees him @ 9:13 PM :)

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