.concert;sponge cola;love. Sunday, December 24, 2006
waaaaa.!
im here at mina's house. im gonna sleepover. pra msya. haha. :))
aun. kung anu man mangyayari sa sleepover, bukas na. ung concert ang topic ngaun. haha. X)
aun. waaa.
kakauwi lng namin sa napakasayang concert evah. haha. X) eh kasi naman, 2nd gig pa lng nila yael na napupuntahan ko ksi madalas di ako pinapayagan. nakuuuu. :) aun. nakakatuwa.
may concert sa plaza ng tanauan. tpos un.
by 7 nagbibihis na kme. tpos un. by 7.45 andun na kme. haha. :)) excited tlga eh. hehe. X) 7.30 ksi pupil. haha. 10.00 pa daw sponge cola. haha. :)
NOTE::magulo tong post na toh kasi kinikilig pa rin ako. :))
aun. so pag dating namin, dami na tao. as in. haha. X) aun. waaa. tpos si mina, tinawagan niya si bestfriend jacqui pra tulungan kmi mag backstage. haha. pero ndi raw sya punta. pero hanapin raw namin ung isang person na kakausapin ng dad ni ate jac pra tulungan kmi. haha. pagdating dun, kinig ng konti sa pupil. haha. tpos after nila, local bands na. hinanap na namin ung person. haha. waaa. by the way, ang gwapo ni "BOGS" ung drummer ng pupil. at si "YAN", nakuuuuuuu. gwapo ni brother in law. haha. X) oo na lng kau. X) aun. hanap hanap kme. tpos un, di namin mahanp. as in nagtanong, bka nagccmba raw. haha. fast forward.... local bands tpos pokwang. haha. X) katuwa sya. haha. :)) aun. habang si pokwang, punta kme dun sa may back door. tpos pumasok kme, tpos andun sina YAEL, YAN, ARMO and GOSH. aun. ung ibang people, pumasok rin. nagpapic kay yael. haha. pumasok kmi, prang wala wala lng. haha. :)) aun. tpos nagpapic kme. haha. X) nakuuuuuuu. ang gwapooooo! X) tpos un. after ni pokwang, sila yael na. haha. X)
sponge!!! waaa. lahat ng tao, kumanta, sumigaw, tumili. lhat! haha. X) aun. kinanta nila LUNES, GEMINI, KLSP, CRAZ?Y FOR YOU, BITIW, NAKAPAGTATAKA tpos JEEPNEY. basta. ang galing. ung bitiw, prang version nung myx live. haha. X) tpos crazy for you. naku. kilig. tpos ung lunes may sounde effects pa. haha. tpos ung jeepney, si yan nagplay ng guitars tpos super bigay si yael. haha. :)) as in prang ung sa mtv live nila. nakuuu. X) aun. after nila magplay, punta ulit kme backstage, tpos nakita kami nung pulis na pinagtanungan namin. haha. pinapasok kmi. weh. akala niya pamangkin kme nung secretary nung mayor. nakuuuu. haha. X) aun. pag pasok, nakita ko si kuya yan. dming girls. haha. X) joke. aun. tpos si yael. haha. X) tinanong ko kung pede vid, sbi niya cge. aun. sbe ko greet nya ung listersssss. haha. X) bait. aun. nakakatuwa. haha. X) dalawang beses ko sya nakita. haha. :)) waaaa. at nakapasok pa ng wala wala lng. haha. X) katuwa. ndi ko na nakausap ung iba ksi busy na tska gusto mag rest. haha. may sense ba un. haha. X) un. haha.
bukas,i shall fix. X)
waaaa. the night was filled with takot.laughter.joy.kilig.love. X) its alllll gooooood. :) i love yael. X)
-she lovees him @ 12:20 AM :)
Sunday, December 03, 2006
i just read macin's post. weh. im actually surprised na she felt that way pala...
because i also feel the same way.
weh. haha. madrama ito. haha. :))
anyhoo. yeah. there were times na i thought of not studying, not doing the projects. not doing homeworks. heck, i thought of not even going to school anymore. i dont really know why. i just felt that way. i think its because of the pressure... pressure that i always think comes from teachers and parents but actually, the pressure comes from me. i dont know.
maybe im just tired. tired of working hard. tired of staying up late for projects that i would eventually throw out anyway. tired of studying for long tests and quizzes. and most importantly, tired of working so so hard but in the end, knowing that someone else did better than you, someone else got a higher score than you. gawd i suck. im tired of failing and disappointing myself after all the hard work.
i know im coming off as a jealous selfish little biatch who always want to be the best and cant accept the fact that others are better. maybe i am like that. maybe i am...
i want to be a second honor student. i do. I REALLY DO. i even dreamt that i'll be the first student to ever get a first honor in st. scho. but that dream is slipping away. far far away. and it sucks, knowing that im not who i want me to be.
i just want to be like before. a student that just cared for her grades and nothing more. just her academics. never cared for her friends or others, really. because that way, i dont have emotional problems.
oh gawd. i suck.
oh....
and im tired...
of knowing that whatever i do for you, you would always choose her over me. and that if things dont go the way you want them to, if things between you two get all broken and crappy, you run back to me. and i just welcome you with open arms. even if i know that once you find the next person to love, you'll just leave me again, i still welcome you when you come back.
ayoko na ng ganito. ayoko na kasi nasasaktan na ako. ayoko na kasi nahihirapan na ako. ayoko na. nakakapagod. nakakainis.
and most of all, nakakaiyak isipin na kahit alam ko na ung mga mangyayari, ung mga gagawin mo, tinatanggap pa rin kita.
this sucks.
haay.
im tired...
of knowing na you never loved me. that you never even liked me. and the only reason you were there was because you were polite and nice. and you liked her. gawd.
i was starting to fall for you. i swear. i never wanted to. but i think i did. and i think i still have feelings for you. thats why i hated you when you left. i hated you when you never liked me. i hated you when you didnt have feelings for me. and i hated myself, kasi i let myself fall for you even if i knew you liked/loved someone else.
yes, this post started out as a post for my rants as a student. it turned out to be a post about my rants for being stupid.
i dont think people saw or knew this side of me. they just thought that i was this 'smart' girl who never had problems. they never knew how i felt about being 'smart'--what was behind those high grades. they never knew what i was going through. what i was putting myself through.
this is madrama. and honestly, while typing this, i wanted to cry. yes, i am tired.
-she lovees him @ 6:42 PM :)
