okay. i posted about Jesus kanina and him having relatives. so this post is going to be a serious one. and very confusing because i seem to be debating against myself. i crazy.
so now i am starting to confuse my self all over again. this happened na eh. this confusing-my-self thing. it happened in vietnam na.
why? because of a book. the jesus papers.
if i read it correctly, it is about Jesus not really being the Son of God. the book made it seem that this Jesus person was not really the Messiah. he was just this person who knew how to go to the other life and come back to the real life.
and that he didnt really resurrect. prang ganun. it was as if he was alive all along.
and after reading my sister's blog and angels and demons, i just felt that what if there really isnt any God or Jesus. what if the oldest people ever in the history of old people just made God up so that for all the things that they couldnt explain, they could blame God for it. they could just be like, "only God knows" or something like that. confusing things.
oh well. maybe its just like a test of faith.
and maybe, im failing that test cause im doubting God.