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i love HIM. i hate HIM. i miss HIM. i want HIM. this sucks.

the girl

The girl who is so lost without you.
her name is jinxx by the way. :D

her wants

..YOU
..YOU
..YOU
..& YOU
..& a new phone
..& a shopping spree too

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aui:)
coleen:)
elioba:)
erika:)
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gabe:)
ina:)
lee:)
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marnie:)
mau:)
mina:)
phia :)
rica :)
shariz :)

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> .hope in love--always.
> .kaboom!.
> .the service.
> .b-o-r-e-d.
> .whatever 04.
> .surveyness.
> .gloomy.
> .prutti practice.
> .changed.
> .change of stuffies.

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> July 2006
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.bitch is being a jinxx.
Saturday, September 09, 2006

arrrgh!

jinxx is being a bitch. really.

why? because this past 2 days, life has been a bitch. so i returned the 'favor' it was giving me.


yesterday, i got super tired becuase of what we call 'practice' which really wasnt practice. haha! X) cause we are so obedient. practice was the best. haha. X) funny moments with the dancers. especially alyssa and nicole. X) fun fun fun. X) i think when nicole grows up ,she's going to be a gymnast or something. haha. X) oh, this kwento may have mababaw things. mababaw ako eh. X) and not really accurate words. haha. X) anyhoo,things happened like:

nina, alyssa, mina and ashley wanted to play volleyball. so they did. only me and nicole didnt. hehe. so we sat on one side of the court. our convo was like:
me: you should have told me that you were going to wear your chucks. i could have worn mine. X)
nicole: i did! yesterday. haha.X)
me: oh wait. its ok pala na i didnt wear mine.
nicole: [some line i forgot. but its about her writing on my chucks]
me: i think i have a pen right here[i really didnt. X) just bluffing sis.]
nicole: [runs to other side of the court and sits there]

haha. funny. X)

after they played volleyball, nina, ashley, alyssa and nicole started with the tumbling thing. nina wanted to learn ata. me and mina just sat on the floor. haha. X) talking lang. then nicole did a cartwheel.

mina: nicole, ulit!! X)
me: oo nga! circus ito.!

ulit naman si nicole. haha. X) mina and i looked like little kids. X)

aun. after the tumbling things, nina,nicole, ashley and alyssa went to the back side of the gym. kami ni mina, usap lng. haha. X) mga tamad. aun. when i saw nicole, i thought she was going to do a cartwheel pero i thought again na she couldnt cause she'd hit the cabinet of the gym. tapos we didnt mind them na. tpos we heard two "bangs". tapos i looked at sila nicole, i saw nicole on the floor. she was trying to do a headstand pla. grabe. and she hit her knee and elbow. haha. X) she was even laughing. we didnt know if we were going to comfort her or what. haha! everyone was laughing!X) aun. after nun, nicole wanted to do a bridge naman. the one where you dont have to lay/lie down. X)

nicole: jinky, support my back.
me: no, you're just going to fall and hit your head.
nicole: [sees alyssa] alyssa, support my back.
alyssa: why?
nicole: im going to do a bridge.
alyssa: [goes to nicole and supports her back and tummy, somehow
nicole: not like that alyssa, just my back.
alyssa: but you're going to fall.
me: [supports nicole's back] there!
alyssa: okay. [supports nicole's back too.]
nicole: [after she'd done the bridge] ok, let go.
me: are you sure?
nicole: yeah!
me and alyssa: ok. [let go]
nicole: [after 2 seconds] come back. come back!!! i cant come up!

i couldnt help her cause i was laughing so hard! X)

but i still cant change the fact that i got tired. hehe. and i smelled like crap. haha! X) also, yesterday, there was one thing that really ticked me off. really. it sucked really. i cried cause of it.

gawd. dont be so OA. please. and if you dont want anymore, just say it. i dont like playing games with you anymore. im tired already. i go out of my way for you. even stay awake til 12 am just to write you a letter even though i was busy like hell. i always let you hurt me becuase i dont want to lose you. i always try to say the right things because whenever i try to say how i really feel, you get all sad and "martyr-ish" and tell me that you're giving up on me but in the end, you blame it all on me that's why we never work out. you always say that we'll never work out but you still say its my fault. you say that im so insensitive when in fact im always hurt with what you say and i cant realize that. its always my fault even if i've done everything i could. its always my fault even if you're the one who's letting go of me and giving up on the friendship. its always MY FAULT.

well, start thinking.
everytime you say you're letting go of me, dont you think i get hurt?
everytime you say its my fault, dont you think i get hurt?
everytime you say goodbye, dont you think i get hurt?

stop thinking about yourself or about my faults and start thinking about yours. im sacrificing my feelings already just for you. and you cant even realize that. im doing everything i can for the moment and you cant even realize that. and im pretty sure that if you read this, you're going to get mad and stop being my friend.


anyhoo. i wanted to go to the album launch of spongycola since it could really cheer me up. i knew it could. i needed to go. but i didnt. no one was going and i was sure as hell that my parents wont allow me to go nor drive me to Metrowalk. i was just stuck to listening to the live broadcast through the radio. oh well. i had to take what i could. so anyhoo. it did cheer me up. yael is such a funny guy. hehe. i love listening to him. errr, them. hehe. X) the armo song. X) cute! X) so yeah. since i loved it soo much, i wanted to record it. but the only thing my dear phone had was a video recorder so i recorded it using that. haha. X) still. dont care. as long as i get to hear his voice and wits every day. so yeah. that cheered me up. X)


that was yesterday. a handful. >.< today sucked big time!

i fought with my mother, cursed my sister and did a tantrum in front of my brother because of my sister. slept thinking that i wouldnt wake up. had no interest whatsoever in doing anything. skipped lunch because i got pissed. got mad at my mother and sister when they tried to wake me up to go to the dentist. but i felt better listening to my recorded yael thing and when i went to mass. X) felt bad because of a big news. felt sad cause of my problem with my bhes. felt angry cause of nothing.

today SUCKED. so much, worse day ever. and since im so babaw, im still regretting not going to the album launch yesterday. sucks.

oh well. life is a bitch. bitch is life.

-she lovees him @ 9:31 PM :)